Lucid Dreaming? Out-of-body Experience?

One night, when I was about 12 years old, I must have entered the sleep/awake onset, while awakening. ...And I was trapped! There was this intense vibration moving up and down my back, which at the same time spread throughout my body. It felt like an electrical current. I tried to move, but I couldn't. After a few attempts to become fully awaken, I concluded that it was similar to the "vibrations" medians exhibited while incorporated by a spiritual entity. ...Or possessed? That could be the case... - Oh my God! - I thought. - I am being possessed!- That electricity was impressive, and I couldn't move... I became really anxious, and made an even bigger effort to regain myself, until after seemingly an eternity, the vibrations and electricity subsided and I could move myself again. I then immediately got up, wrapping myself in my blanket, and ran to my parents room. I called them anguished, and explained that there was a spirit trying to possess me. They soothed me and suggested to pray to God and not to be worried. I reluctantly returned to my bed not at all sure, if it happened again, I could escape from that powerful "electrical grip". I did as my parents suggested, prayed, but sleep took a long time to overcome my fear. Despite of my intense fear I eventually succumbed to my sleep, not returning to that disturbing "grip" again.

Even though I haven't had any more of those "electrical vibrations" experiences again for years, it was undetectable from my memory. However, I did have "interesting morning dreams", many of them that did seem OBEs/lucid-dreams, according to my present understanding. Many of them had the characteristic of "flying dreams", or those with difficulties of some sort, which also are symptomatic of the condition of "OBE".

Difficult-dreams:

When I entered university at 18 years of age, I had to go through a long bus ride to reach it, every day. Then, at night, tiredness would be present even though I had to prepare either home-work or get ready for an exam. My way around the problem was to go to bed earlier, get up with enough time in the morning to study or do my work. It worked well and faster, and I frequently had enough time to take a short nap before my time to get up and start to get ready to leave. It was in these conditions that I once again started to experience that frightful "electricity and vibrations" at some point of the quasi-sleep situation. I obviously remembered my first experience, and the oh-so-scary possibility of being possessed. As during the first time, I resisted to the vibrations, and it worked a few times, until in one instance I didn't win on it... And (?)I slip out, somehow, to soon slip back in. I noted that! Actually, during this second situation, I frequently happened to "slip in and out", sequentially, and that was what made me to finally slid out, remaining out for a while longer (?) (review). I then learned that what was "moving in and out" was actually myself, not some possessor spirit. Soon, when vibrations came, I allowed this "slipping out" to happen, and I discovered that I could even move away from my body. I couldn't see well, but I had a "sense" of direction somehow, and I would move away from the my body for a very short while to soon be back again.

My period of "difficult dreams" were gone, but not before a period of time where I was once again frightened to the point of thinking I was becoming sick, somehow. The "discovery of myself slipping out of the body" was an important step, and it freed me from the fear of possession. I also soon related those "slipping out and in" with the falling dreamlets, and with those "interesting head-moving up" sensations at the sleep onset. However, freeing oneself of fears is not an easy thing. For a long time I still would be a bit fearful of those morning vibrations and in-out-slipping until about 7 or 8 years later, when I went to that "course on getting out of the matter consciously", which was presented by Rotilde Cassiano de Almeida about Bianca's experience.

Before I describe my experience with Bianca's method, I will first describe the following experience. Almost exactly one year before I had gone to Rotilde's course about Bianca's method of "OBEing", which happened on November 1980, I was having problems with head-aches. To investigate its possible causes, I went to an ophthalmologist. After examining my very good-vision and concluding I didn't have any defective sight, the doctor decided to move a pencil close to my eyes to test my ability to converge the eyes. Apparently it was not done to his satisfaction and he concluded I should follow a short treatment for a mild "strabismus". He explained that it could be the reason for my head-aches. (Actually, it was due to rinitis or sinusitis, worsened by allergies.) He then recommended I visit his technician, who worked in another office, and I started a series of about four weeks "strabismus treatment". It consisted of eye-exercises, in essence. Nothing else. I was put in a device where I would have to exercise "eye coordination", while fixing some barely seen moving target... Then, this technician would use a transparent plastic ruler with graduated prisms. While looking at a pin-point light located on a dark-wall, and while the room was darkened, I was supposed to "focus that light to one point". And I would repeat that focusing when I changed a grade of prism, until I couldn't focus the light anymore. I was supposed to try my best, and obviously that caused extreme tension on the muscles of the eyes. For home exercise, she prescribed to use a pencil and move it slowly from the distance of an arm-length closer and closer to the my eyes, while keeping the pencil focused, and back again, a few times. Then repeat it at least four times a day, being careful to relax the eyes-muscles by looking at a distant view for a short while. When I was doing this treatment, I soon started to have those "car-head-light dreams", as I called those dream-snippets that I had after driving for a while at night. Those light-dreams would appear close to the falling asleep, and they would surprise me, making me to come back awake. They were just interesting then, except for the fact that they increased in frequency after I was involved with these strabismus exercises. Again, they didn't specially called my attention, until a year later I decided to give a try at that "course on leaving the matter consciously", as the Bianca's course was called.

[ Actually, "light dreams" on the sleep onset happened before... Note that night when I returned from the Vale do Amanhecer (That should have been 1977). Also, while in Sao Paulo, I remember a couple dreams where there was somebody with a light...(?)]

When a friend of mine suggested to try Bianca's course, I was suspicious. I had already a couple of instances of meeting some weirdoes when I got involved in a UFO investigation with this same friend of mine. My friend had warned me that Bianca (along with her boyfriend at the time, Herminio) were the same famous couple who had been abducted by a UFO years before. -They are fakes! - I warned my friend. Worse, they charged for that course, and I reasoned that - if they charge they might just be interested in money, not truth. Still, we both decided to "pay and see", falling to our curiosity. The person who was representing Bianca, Rotilde Cassiano de Almeida, happened to be a picky UFO investigator. He had gone to a recent UFO-meeting that had happened earlier that year in Brasilia, where he met Bianca and Herminio. Bianca had then mentioned how she had learned "the method for leaving the material body consciously". In a challenge that she took from Rotilde, he started those methods very meticulously, to test their veracity. [I believe there was a "money back guarantee", in this challenge...] And now Rotilde was helping new ones in those methods, as he claimed his diary of experiences had increased daily. He introduced this class to the exercises spread in four weekends, keeping from thereon regular meetings during Saturdays. At a certain point, he had given the "finger exercises", and toward the end of the series of them he then instruct to "search for a point of light", then "rotate it", to "build the exit-channel". It was all fine to this point, except that "those light-dreams" immediately started to happen again for me, with a frequency that was noticeable, principally after we were instructed to "search for a point of light"... I noted that, and it was coincident to the re-starting of those "car-head-light dreams at the border of sleep" that I had a year before.